Can I be blunt here. I did mine in 1999. A tri/m fracture and dislocation. I hate to sound mean, but it doesn't do much good to ruminate about why it happened to you. YOu really need to remain as positive as possible and get on with your life. Being down about it doesn't change anything. I just adapted to do different things. Instead of volley ball, I swim. Instead of extended hiking or walking, I do shorter things within my abilities. THe most important thing my ortho told me is KNOW YOUR LIMITS! No one can tell you that you are doing too much or too little. You are the one that knows when the pain gets bad. THe swelling never goes away, it improves but it's always there. So is the pain and the fatigue people experience afterwards. I don't enjoy the odd looks when people see all my scars in the summer time (I've had multiple surgeries). Believe it's happened, you have the proof! Just try not to dwell on the negative and move onward. There's a lot of us out there that it's happened to as well and we keep moving forward. If the depression becomes a big issue you might want to speak to your doctor about it. There's always therapy or medication. When I had mine re-broken they gave me something for a short time for the anxiety. I didn't need it afterward. But at the time it was helpful. Best of Luck!