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Comment : an update on us both....
Posted by Kellie on Wed 8:32am 12 March 2003
Wow how time flys!! Well, as most of you know, I decided to join the amputee life after too may things had gone wrong...what I HAD- compound fractures to the femur, tib/fib, lost muscle and skin, had a foot be reconnected....I had 14 total surgeries with in that year and a half. Had the free flap, skin graphing and bone graphing done useing my hip bone. Had screws taken out, resulting in that one persent chance of it happening but it did happen to me...my femur graph was not strong enough to support me and the rod in my femur slipped out the end by my knee locking my leg in a 40 degree angle, SO back into surgery I go to have EVERTHING taken out and replaced....then screws back out, I get that fixed...then ready for the next graph ONLY to be find out I had an infection eating away at my tibia bone. I NEVER had any signs of infection. SO docs stich me back up and send me home with anitbiotics that didn't work...a month later the choice of me either going through 4 years of MORE crap or time to move on, well, I moved on! On sept 5 2002, I had my lower right leg amputated and haven't had a simple regret! Thank god it's over!!! Not an easy choice you might say but if you think about it, I could have went through all those surgeries(for 4 years more) and lost it anyways....a 10 percent chance of all that crap working? NO THANK YOU!! So onward I go with a leg that works! It may be fake but it's mine and works a hell of a lot better than the useless/damaged/never gonna be the same/no feeling what so ever, numb/always in pain foot/ankle I had! YEAH!! I have my life back, I can walk, sure there's a bit of a limp but who cares! I have my life back and that to me is more important than being the dam experiment I could have been!!!
Neil is doing very well himself, he has been back to work for over a year now. (i went back to hairdressing in december) He showed me not to long ago that he can run....now some might think big deal BUT running on a fake leg is not as easy as you may think, but when you figure out how to use those legs, you can do anything, just like he has! He has been back on a bike(me too) a freedom we will never give up just because some idiot THOUGHT he owned the road! Put it this way, that idiot ran the two wrong people off the road. (he he he-evil laugh!!!) Anyways, Neil had also lost a good deal of skin on his lower leg resulting in the medical team amputating it. He also has harware in his femur, the lower screws were removed before he started with the prosthethis.
We were both in the hospital when this first happened for a month....docs wanted to keep an eye on us both in case they had to amputate more of Neil or if they would have to amputate me.
Ya know, i did ask why they saved my leg as damaged as it was....if I could have spoke my mind(to many drugs they put you on) I would have chopped it off then!! This was the longest year and a half I every had to endure but ya know, I don't regret going through any of the crap I did, for one reason, it prepared me for my amputation with my head held high!!! and head held high, Neil and I do! We go on through life...living! seeing our kids grow...being able to play with them...making the world out there understand, things happen for what ever reasons they be...knowing we could have lost each other that night....we survived, with heads held high!!!!! So when you get that feeling that I just can't do this...contact Neil or me, we will dig you out of that hole and make you see life like we do....WONDERFUL!!!
- an update on us both.... - Kellie Wed 12 Mar 2003
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