yes keri, i cry constantly. i'm also independent or i was i should say. each day you'll be able to do more for yourself and you'll take pride in these accomlishments. as far as the medication goes, it does mess with your emotions. It causes mood swings constantly. I would suggest only taking it when you really need it. first off, pills are man made therefore unhealthy for your mind and body and also, the sooner you get off them you can start seeing where your pain level is at and what you are able to do. they made me dizzy so i was scared to get up at all. don't let this get you down. remeber we are stronger than this. p.s. what a crappy hotel. if you have anymore questions or just want to vent i'm here.Daphne