I am sitting here with 11 days until my surgery to remove the hardware in my ankle, and since this has probably been the MOST confusing aspect of this break, I thought I would post for those of you coming after me and as confused as I am/have been. I can honestly say I do not go into this surgery without some fear and trepidation. This will be my fourth surgery in 1 1/2 years; that's a lot. (The first two were related to being a 48 year old woman; the third was the broken leg) I have tried not to think about the surgery and anesthesia and all that brings too much as every time I do I feel like crying. Quite frankly and honestly, this whole thing is scary. In the truest sense, this is an elective surgery. My ankle has healed (and did so quickly and nicely), and I really had no unexpected difficulties. I am, however, left with the constant sense of the hardware and when I do certain things, an "ouch" type reaction from the HW. So, after much debate and soul searching, I elected to do the surgery. I head into surgery optimistic it will allow me to recover even further from the break, but, let me emphasize, I do head into surgery nervous and ready to get it over with and on with that recovery (and the HUGE hope this is my LAST surgery I need to go through). I also deal with the negative thoughts that creep in when I get really afraid, like what if I got an infection?, what if something goes wrong, what if .....? It's at those times that I just have to close my mind to those thoughts and think of something else. I also go back and read Janice Flanigan's entry on this site regarding her HW removal and how well that went. Again, this site has been instrumental in giving me the information and support I need. I can't begin to imagine what this whole experience would have been like had I not found this site and the people I have come to know as we struggled through our recoveries. How I wish more of us could somehow meet. We have been through a life-altering experience together and supported each other; what a blessing. Anyway, I ramble on. I will let you all know how the surgery goes and the recovery after.
I thought I would also let you all know briefly how the home-improvement project has been going. In a nutshell, not as well as we hoped. We rented a back-hoe to dig the hole to move the sewer tank for our lower level. That resulted in a 5' by 15' long by 9' deep hole in my yard (under where our deck used to be). Before we could finish that whole project, we had a deluge of a rainstorm. We luckily stretched 2/4's across the hole and covered it with tarps or we would have ended up with a swimming pool. We spent the day and night bailing the water out to keep the tarps from getting overloaded. At that point my husband and I decided to put off digging the trenches for the footings (which meant basically the whole framing project) until next spring. We have had FREEZING temps already, our first light snows, and the thought of tearing into the house roof to tie in the addition and potentially ending up with 3' of snow on exposed sheathing with no roofing and trying to figure out how to keep the house from getting flooded with melting snow and getting that snow off the roof without ending up with another broken something, convinced us it just was not worth pushing ahead. We are both SO disappointed our two inept engineers have basically caused this delay, but there are definitely worse things that can happen in life (uh, a broken leg!). So, we will continue working on our big stone fireplace inside and other projects, and patiently wait for winter to pass. Best laid plans you know!
As I close this posting, thanks to those of you who keep checking in on me. I haven't had as much time to post as we spent two straight days shoveling dirt and rocks and trying to get out downstairs sewer back online. We're still working on it. I will let you know how things go with the surgery. If I might ask, please send good thoughts my way on December 21st. My surgery is at 7:30 in the morning. All the best to you, and I truly hope the holidays are joyful and happy for all of you. Here's to a great year ahead!!!