I know how you feel I have been in a wheel chair for 16 months now had 3 surgeries and am still looking at many months. I shattered both my tib/fib and the bones are not healing I still could loose my leg. It is hard some days to even get out of bed depression is always knocking at my door. All I can tell you is time does heal all wounds. One way or another. Just wanted you to know there are others in the same place as you are.